Friday, January 25, 2008
add~
*for those whom is concern*
I just need the time and i'm pretty sure that i'll be fine when i turn 15.
I just need the time and i'm pretty sure that i'll be fine when i turn 15.
your love is like a shadow at 8:55 PM
13 said we can't be wrong together
13 said we can't be wrong together
Broken
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can S T O P tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am d-a-m-a-g-e-d at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a b-r-o-k-e-n heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for L~I~F~E
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel all right
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside'
Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on
Maybe it can S T O P tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am d-a-m-a-g-e-d at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a b-r-o-k-e-n heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for L~I~F~E
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel all right
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside'
Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on
your love is like a shadow at 8:04 PM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together
Saturday, January 19, 2008
A depressing moment
Dear Self,
I have no say for you anymore. There's too many things that i did hurt you directly or indirectly. It's unfair. I knew it. Thanks fer those who reminded. Life now is nthng better than hell. I didnt treat u the way that u deserve to be treated. In this case, i'm not really sure if the decision that i made is the best decision fer you and the rest. But it's my innner voice and i decided to trust it again. I'm sorrie if it's not the best thing that i could do. i'm not perfect. i never have been and i never will be.
When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. Realising that the world doesn't end just b'cos you think it will, and sometimes growing up means letting go.
That night was a disastrous one, fer three of us * literally 2*, i'm not crying b'cos it's over, i cherish it b'cos it happened. Everything have to come to an end. Ending means a great start with silent screams and secret scars. Sunk painfully deeper into my warm bed. Sorrowness is running in my blood flowing rapidly throughout my whole body including all your vital organ causing your body to stop functioning well.
Flipping over pages after pages, the memories which have been left alone, a past, dark past, filled with happiness, sadness, and each and every moment of ur life that will lead you to the very end of the game. Evrythings creeps on your mind. Friends, Family, People that i can share secrets with, the most ~ my sister.
I have no say for you anymore. There's too many things that i did hurt you directly or indirectly. It's unfair. I knew it. Thanks fer those who reminded. Life now is nthng better than hell. I didnt treat u the way that u deserve to be treated. In this case, i'm not really sure if the decision that i made is the best decision fer you and the rest. But it's my innner voice and i decided to trust it again. I'm sorrie if it's not the best thing that i could do. i'm not perfect. i never have been and i never will be.
When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. Realising that the world doesn't end just b'cos you think it will, and sometimes growing up means letting go.
That night was a disastrous one, fer three of us * literally 2*, i'm not crying b'cos it's over, i cherish it b'cos it happened. Everything have to come to an end. Ending means a great start with silent screams and secret scars. Sunk painfully deeper into my warm bed. Sorrowness is running in my blood flowing rapidly throughout my whole body including all your vital organ causing your body to stop functioning well.
Flipping over pages after pages, the memories which have been left alone, a past, dark past, filled with happiness, sadness, and each and every moment of ur life that will lead you to the very end of the game. Evrythings creeps on your mind. Friends, Family, People that i can share secrets with, the most ~ my sister.
You is turning 15 in 20 days time. I am giving you 20 days time to reformat your mind which is caught with viral infection. You somehow need to recover and move on because one door closes but another opens with you realising. The day when you turn 15, i want the old you but the improved version of you. You deserve to live a better life when you're 15 than flooding your life with life treathening jokes and highly invisible traps.
You can take this 20 days time to think about and learn frm the lesson but when you officially turn 15, everything should be in the past and no one lives in the past so you should be living in the present. It'll just kill you slowly if you dont change over mentally. Everything should come to the very end since it already happen.
* changes ahead*
yours truly self with loads of selfless love
your love is like a shadow at 8:24 PM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together
Thursday, January 3, 2008
First day schooling~??
I somehow know that this is a very delayed post BUT please forgive me. =.="
03.01.2008
First day in back to the schooling environment, everythng's just new, trying to be normal, but the morn secc just make me feel uncomfortable. Anyway, counting down to the last 3 years of school, i'm so happie cos 2 years left~!! I SHALL LIVE~!!!!!!!!!
I dont feel right here in school. It's just diff. Attended a short assembly at 7.30am. I think i'm just not sane waking up at 6 after pressing the snooze button fer like almost 1000 times. Non-sense speach saying that pmr student must start working frm now. Usaha what , still early kan~~??!! Just leave the whining part. Levinn is my class prefect. Pretty unbelieveable.
Went to our respective classes after the assmebly about usaha-ing. Cik Wong is once again our class teacher. That woman has been my class teacher since f1. Shortly after that. We got our loan text-book. Suprisingly it's new. It's the right decision listning to Shina fer not buying the text-books. The planned koko activities almost everyday afternoon. This trouble students frm attending tuituion. Practically everyone's complaining. I might not be going fer permainan since i cant make it during Fridays and Levinn's not going also. Will reconsider to just take the attendance and bla. Went to register fer clubs that we're entring this year which we ended up choosing maths. The have horrible plannings fer koko activities fyi.
Recess time is now at 10.25 ~ 10.45. Sat with Levinn while Hweyling went fer her tugas. Talked. Went to the office to ask permission fer Hweyling's class changing. Scolded by the clerk cos we wanted to see Pn Asmah. She gets to change at last. Evrythng is fine. Aiwen struggled in the other way. You'll get it aiwen~!!
They organized meeting fer unit beruniform. Darm a lot of ppl squeezing in the tiny dewan. We sat on chairs anyway. Suethuey became the CAPTAIN *a new positon/rank/representative*. Fer annual activity, someone suggests that we visit the zoo.
Went home with the twins. Nice ppl. Ate lunch. Rested.
Gonna take a short nap soon. Till i come back frm hell tomoro....*missed Shina's car in the carpark slot*
03.01.2008
First day in back to the schooling environment, everythng's just new, trying to be normal, but the morn secc just make me feel uncomfortable. Anyway, counting down to the last 3 years of school, i'm so happie cos 2 years left~!! I SHALL LIVE~!!!!!!!!!
I dont feel right here in school. It's just diff. Attended a short assembly at 7.30am. I think i'm just not sane waking up at 6 after pressing the snooze button fer like almost 1000 times. Non-sense speach saying that pmr student must start working frm now. Usaha what , still early kan~~??!! Just leave the whining part. Levinn is my class prefect. Pretty unbelieveable.
Went to our respective classes after the assmebly about usaha-ing. Cik Wong is once again our class teacher. That woman has been my class teacher since f1. Shortly after that. We got our loan text-book. Suprisingly it's new. It's the right decision listning to Shina fer not buying the text-books. The planned koko activities almost everyday afternoon. This trouble students frm attending tuituion. Practically everyone's complaining. I might not be going fer permainan since i cant make it during Fridays and Levinn's not going also. Will reconsider to just take the attendance and bla. Went to register fer clubs that we're entring this year which we ended up choosing maths. The have horrible plannings fer koko activities fyi.
Recess time is now at 10.25 ~ 10.45. Sat with Levinn while Hweyling went fer her tugas. Talked. Went to the office to ask permission fer Hweyling's class changing. Scolded by the clerk cos we wanted to see Pn Asmah. She gets to change at last. Evrythng is fine. Aiwen struggled in the other way. You'll get it aiwen~!!
They organized meeting fer unit beruniform. Darm a lot of ppl squeezing in the tiny dewan. We sat on chairs anyway. Suethuey became the CAPTAIN *a new positon/rank/representative*. Fer annual activity, someone suggests that we visit the zoo.
Went home with the twins. Nice ppl. Ate lunch. Rested.
Gonna take a short nap soon. Till i come back frm hell tomoro....*missed Shina's car in the carpark slot*
Labels: perfect rikako yamashina
your love is like a shadow at 4:00 PM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
2008 year of t!kus
Firstly, i've gotta wish each and everyone of u ppl out there 3ppie n3w y3ar. It's a new year everything's gonna get better from time to time. There's a few resolution that i think i need to accomplish in year 2008.
Here it goes :
1 > Get over those freaking exams.
2 > Save up some cash.
3 > Go to school more often.
4 > Wake up earlier in the morning. *i have prob waking up earlier in the morn fyi*
5 > Hand in hw more often.
6 > Not spending too much on clothes.
7 > Get the killer heels~!!!
8 > Spend more time with the ppl that i love.
9 > Increase starbucks intake.
10 > Forgive what ppl did in year 2007.
11 > Spoiling myself a lil bit more. *hehe*
12 > Complete myself with more karmasutra knowledge.
13 > Be a good girl. sounds impossible but at least to my mum. =)))
Here it goes :
1 > Get over those freaking exams.
2 > Save up some cash.
3 > Go to school more often.
4 > Wake up earlier in the morning. *i have prob waking up earlier in the morn fyi*
5 > Hand in hw more often.
6 > Not spending too much on clothes.
7 > Get the killer heels~!!!
8 > Spend more time with the ppl that i love.
9 > Increase starbucks intake.
10 > Forgive what ppl did in year 2007.
11 > Spoiling myself a lil bit more. *hehe*
12 > Complete myself with more karmasutra knowledge.
13 > Be a good girl. sounds impossible but at least to my mum. =)))
14 > The most important thing for me but maybe not for u : LOVE MYSELF MORE
Hoping that half of these will be accomplish b4 year 2008 ends~!!Cant wait fer it to end although it has just only started. If i am able to complete half of it, i'll give myself a BIG BIG treat. I know most of the resolution sounds lame and useless. *i know* but hey, it's my way of spoling myself.
your love is like a shadow at 7:10 PM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together