Saturday, January 19, 2008
A depressing moment
I have no say for you anymore. There's too many things that i did hurt you directly or indirectly. It's unfair. I knew it. Thanks fer those who reminded. Life now is nthng better than hell. I didnt treat u the way that u deserve to be treated. In this case, i'm not really sure if the decision that i made is the best decision fer you and the rest. But it's my innner voice and i decided to trust it again. I'm sorrie if it's not the best thing that i could do. i'm not perfect. i never have been and i never will be.
When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. Realising that the world doesn't end just b'cos you think it will, and sometimes growing up means letting go.
That night was a disastrous one, fer three of us * literally 2*, i'm not crying b'cos it's over, i cherish it b'cos it happened. Everything have to come to an end. Ending means a great start with silent screams and secret scars. Sunk painfully deeper into my warm bed. Sorrowness is running in my blood flowing rapidly throughout my whole body including all your vital organ causing your body to stop functioning well.
Flipping over pages after pages, the memories which have been left alone, a past, dark past, filled with happiness, sadness, and each and every moment of ur life that will lead you to the very end of the game. Evrythings creeps on your mind. Friends, Family, People that i can share secrets with, the most ~ my sister.
You is turning 15 in 20 days time. I am giving you 20 days time to reformat your mind which is caught with viral infection. You somehow need to recover and move on because one door closes but another opens with you realising. The day when you turn 15, i want the old you but the improved version of you. You deserve to live a better life when you're 15 than flooding your life with life treathening jokes and highly invisible traps.
You can take this 20 days time to think about and learn frm the lesson but when you officially turn 15, everything should be in the past and no one lives in the past so you should be living in the present. It'll just kill you slowly if you dont change over mentally. Everything should come to the very end since it already happen.
* changes ahead*
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