Monday, March 31, 2008
the sun will shine again
How is this again? Well, life for me these few days back were not so great. Encountering more and more breakdowns which i find for the first time in my life i am so worn out of tearing and breakingdown.
Not only all this, a friend of mine is currently in a friendship crisis so hadda help her. I wont neglect her cos i knoe her ' friends ' is doing it. Hard time it is for her. According to her, God is just testing her so much this year. Spell the word F.R.I.E.N.D. again and think twice. Its all in her hands now. Leave or Stay.
Back to school life, my bestie is very estactic for some reasons that i should not disclose. She did not intentionally show it but i know she is. Trying very hard to be real real normal infront of her. I think what she did is enough already. She didnt have to stick to me 24 / 7 to consoule my broken soul but at least she understands and supports me in everyway. Thanx for being there.
On the other hand, this woman who claims that she's facing me 24 / 7 in class and she wants me to be the way i were. the jovial, bising and kacau- kacau type...not drifting apart. I think she's angry with me cos i read something that i aint suppose to which lead to an emotional breakdown. I think you've gotta bear with me and my puffy eyes for a while. I think i should stop the emo atmostphere surrounding her cos i think she's in love and up to something. I am really sorrie if i'm wrong.
Last but not least, someone that i know is watching me and her advice is the piece that i can never forget.
Those who really cared or bothered gave thier best. Could be worst without these people.
Last night, was a starless night. just the blank black sky. Innsomnia struck. I still got a pile of undone homework to go but i couldnt concentrate or continue. Was badly affected by the diary which resulted in sleepless nights and endless cries. Physically and mentally exhausted. My darkroom scares me off. Worst innsomnia case ever. Writting about my feelings will make me understand and calm my soul down. I am just an ordinary girl. Trying to figure things out. I admit that i havent completely heal yet.
*The sun will shine again*
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